Dude..... Why you still tryin?

Man... I woke up this moring (too late to make it to school.... again) and did tha usual stuff, took a piss, ate a pop tart, played sonic 2 for a hour, then hit up the computer while finishing writing a song

but then.......

I thought to myself..... im like another one of the trillion billion n1ggaz makin music and tryin to get into the industry... what makes me anymore special in a poisioned industry just lookin for the next crank dat kid to feed they pockets

what is the point of even doin this shit and goin thru all the bull crap if my message is never gonnna be heard and my visions never realised....

what if I never get a deal and live doin the same 9 to 5 for like 30 years then die with no wifey in the bathroom of my apartment of old age holdin a half full bottle of viagra with a hooker waiting for me on the couch....

what if nobody hears or appriciate my music but me and they end up cds sittin in the basement that the rats wouldn't even shit on....

what if no one even likes me *gasp*

then I thought....

F**K IT

even if no one believes me about my sonic shit or my music the important thing is that I BELIEVE ME

I now realize i use the music to vent and jus be myself and even if nobody hears it I HEAR IT

i got lyrics layin all over the place on food reciepts, postcards, folded paper, flyers etc.......

Looks like i got a paracitic relationship with the music.........

So even if I never get a deal....... I still have an A and B button with a direction pad that likes me

They say its crazy to ACTUALLY call myself sonic.... I call myself that because I am the sound. Period. I need sound. Thats my base reason (read my earlier post to see in depth)


(I'm not sayin fuck hamilton or nuthin like that.... I know how he relates with sonic and respect it, we are two different Sonics.... in two different zones..... just in the same game and music genre)


But dead ass I'll still keep makin my music even if you feelin it or not *looks at sonic haters*

projects might be delayed because i have to get a new mic and protools (p.s. cereal, kool aid, and cpus dont mix)


Well... thats it for my daily apifinys

If you liked this have a nice day....... if you hate me go back to sleep


Purple=Sound
~SONiC~