You know those relationships you just cant seem to get rid of even though you know damn well that sh!t is over? Ever had a girl that you loved so much that no matter how she hurt you at the end of the day you could never manage to call her a bitch?
I just saw my ex (not to drop names but... its T**fany, you can figure it out) today in the hall (yes im in high school), we had one of them "old west stare downs" like i didnt know what the fuck to say and she was lookin like she was trying to forget our past..... I had one of those "flashbacks" (lol you know the ones like the movies and shit)..... First thing i wanted to ask was why, but i knew the answer. We havent talked since October because of a fallout love. It was real to me but.... i guess it was a game to her..... Over sum she want to get back with her ex boyfried cause he said sumthing..... For the record we had been together for about a year and sum months and i was FINALLY in love again. Being love for me is like heaven and hell, i the happiest i ever been but im vunurable to being hurt..... She hurt me. After she left i was more lost than a little kid in a grocery store.
Dead ass, I was F**KED up.... For a good 2 weeks all i was locked in my room. Only came out to take a piss or eat. ALL i did was eat, play Sonic the hedgehog (now u kno why i use him), and sleep. When i was at school i stayed zoned out, sleep with my headphones on, and dint talk to no niggas. Maddd depressed..... Gradually gettin over it i was coming out of the state but I stopped making music for a while and jus spent my days playing Sonic 2. The pain actually made me more mentally aware and a better lyricist.
I used to wish i never met her, but now that i got past her...... I'm able to see her what God wanted me to see her as...... a blessing...... a life lesson.... a musical inspiration..... Her love made me love better..... so whenever i find who im REALLY supposed to be with..... I can love that girl to the best of my ability and more. I still have those dreams replaying the moment she left....... but its all good. Still play Sonic lol.
Thats it for today.....
~Sonic MC~
-Intergalatic Tracklist Born from Mobius-
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